fear NOT.
Lately, the topic of fear has come up in conversation—literally every day. Clearly, it was something I needed to pay attention to. A question challenged me to examine the areas in my life where I disguise fear with softer labels like “introvert” or “procrastination.”
My response?
I fear stepping into something too big for me, something I can’t sustain. I fear that instead of support, I’ll just face more expectations. I fear that I don’t know enough, that I’ll fail—not just myself, but my children—and never reach the dreams I hold so close. So, I choose what feels safer, more controllable, more comfortable. I show up late to the things I truly want. I’ve made a habit of asking for something small, then feeling disappointed when I don’t receive more—when, in reality, I never dared to ask for what I truly wanted.
I was afraid my critics would highlight the very flaws I’m still working on, so I avoided them instead of showing up, imperfections and all. I feared being misunderstood, so I stayed silent. I feared it would all be too much, so I pulled away at the first sign of tension. I feared loving too deeply, only to be disappointed. I feared loosing people.
Deep breathe. That was the first time I had ever admitted all of that.
If you haven’t noticed, I really love God. He’s my everything—my Father. And the reason I can’t hold on to both Him and fear is simple: I know Him. I know His ways, His desires for me.
One—He does not lie.
Two—He is undefeated; nothing and no one can stop Him.
Three—He loves me (and you) more than we can fathom.
We were created for His glory. He wants to reveal all that He is capable of. We weren’t meant to do life alone, to figure it all out ourselves. He already has the answers—He always has. But He gave us free will so that we could choose to trust Him. And when we don’t, it grieves Him. Because without trust, we strive. And without trust, there is no freedom. Then we his children began leaning into things that pull them further way from him.
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? (Romans 8:35)
When your Father owns and created everything ,when He is sovereign over every being, lack doesn’t exist. Fear has no place. When you truly know God’s heart, you realize that His plans are far greater than yours—that He wants the absolute best for you. And when you consider that, it’s breathtaking. His best. And He’s God. Why would we ever want anything less?
And then there’s His presence. Perfect peace. Euphoria. A high with no crash. The only consequence of walking with Him is transformation. But you have to know Him to trust that.
Yeah… He’s everything. I’ve never been loved so deeply.
Love you!
